So... out he comes. I had already seen this guy in the internet on his website. I was excited, he looked friendly. So he takes me into the other office where I think we're going to have a nice chat. Oh man, then he started talking. Thrusting a couple of folders into my hand he fired away describing me the course he offered and what he thought about astrology and whether people are gifted or not for it...
Here's what it sounded like.
"But you should see if you have a gift for it first before you start"Him.
"Well, I think that astro-" Me, barely getting a word out.
"And you can do my course around the world, that's the great thing about it!" Him, cutting in.
"Well what I really wanted to say was that I want to get in contact with other astrologers-" Me.
"Ya, you can find tons of contacts in the internet" Him. Hidden message:"Are you gonna buy my course or just complain about your feelings? My courses don't involve feelings and I don't know what they are."
"Ok, well thank you" Me. Dumbfounded and disappointed.
"Hey, no problem! Ok, bye!" Him. Pushing me out the door.
He could have said,"If you have questions about astrology we could meet later, right now I'm really busy." No. Man, that hurt my feelings so much. I'm just trying to reach out.
I was just surprised how this guy acted towards me because I know astrologers are a rare species and therefore, I imagine, friendly with one another. Its so hard to find other astrologers. I am having a Venus transit opposing my natal Pluto today and Jupiter is conjuncting my natal Pluto as well. What's that supposed to mean? It didn't seem good to me. I have Pluto in the third house. The third house is important to me because I am a Gemini. I like to get deep into things (I know, I know, sometimes looking for hidden motivations when there is nothing really there), I think about them allot and take them seriously. I don't know what Venus opposite Pluto means. I think Jupiter says..... whatever.
I've just been starved for contact with others lately. My girlfriend is gone away, I'm left here for 6 days. It sucks. I literally felt the black hole opening up when she left, as if a huge part of myself was ripped from my body itself. And then I try and reach out to this astrologer guy, and this shit happens? Man. I've been hanging out with a couple of friends, something I haven't done in a long time, but when I come home I feel empty. Just totally empty. I've been feeling like this for ages and I haven't found anyone who I can really share my feelings with. Its like there's some invisible barrier that keeps me from reaching other people, and them me. I hate it. Does it have to do with Pluto? I look to astrology but I don't find any answers. Its empty like the rest... Can anyone tie this up for me, send me some info about Pluto?
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