Tarot for Blog?

I actually did a little bit of a Tarot consultation for making this Blog. I was a bit nervous about making it; I didn’t know how it would turn out and what people would think about it. Looking for some insight, I turned to Tarot. So far, my experiences with Tarot have been much more, how shall I put it, confirming of my feelings. I relate to it much quicker, whereas with Astrology I have to work for about an hour until I can get myself into the "Astrology mood" so to say. I’m really amazed at the different results I've gotten out of the two of them. Anyways, here is the layout I got.

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Anyway, after having spent half my time on getting this picture to work, there it is. Geez it took so long. I’m actually in Germany at the moment and just starting Tarot. So I've been using the Crowley Tarot deck, I don’t know if anyone knows about it, and the interpretation book is in German. The card layout is one I got in the back of the book; simple and quick. I like it. I didn’t really ask a specific question, I just asked for some insight. So....

Position 1: The current situation I’m looking at: Here lay DEFEAT, 5 swords. Not very promising for a reading eh? This basically said to me that I was "scared of failure", in the sense that I was worried what people would think of this. This was totally true.

Position 2: What am I open for? Here was INDOLENCE, a word I don’t understand completely! Keywords connected to the card: Laziness, emotional blockage and unclarity. Naturally I wasn’t open to these things and I didn’t want them!!! What was also described was a kind of "bottomless well" where I put forward, but didn’t get anything back; no input, no reassurance, both in an emotinal sense. I totally resonated with that. I need input (hint hint)!!!

Position 3: How/what am I being/showing? Here was the FOOL, the ultimate blank sheet upon which I could paint my work. Not knowing and not being afraid. Just trying. (I love that card, maybe you can tell.) Just getting out there.

Position 4: The result: VICTORY!!! I’m really sorry for lack of deeper interpretation, but that's pretty clear I think. Telling me not to worry; and that the fruits of my labours will come to being. Thank, YOU!!!

So, basically, this reading told me I was scared of failure (true) and scared of losing energy into a bottomless pit (true). But, I would play the fool (true again....) and come to Victory (we'll have to wait and see about that one). And so, I just did it. And, its slowly coming along. What do you think?

There's always a first time.... INTRODUCTION

So, this is the first post of my new site. My name is Alexander Banman. I’m 17 years old, and stationed in Freiburg at the moment, at my girlfriends house.

I started teaching myself Astrology in June, 2005. That's about a year ago now. I started by.... how did I really start???? I guess I just started hemming around in books... Ahhh!!! I picked up a book at the bookstore called "What Astrology Can do for You", and read fervently through it, just trying to get a basic grasp of the astrological language. I guess I got a really basic picture, and I must thank Stephanie J. Clement for her literature. Although the book is quite small, it really sums up what astrology is about, and I would recommend it to any beginners. It’s much better for the learner than advanced books that go straight into interpretation. I really needed just to learn the basics. Since then I've been blundering my way through other books and still just trying to get the distilled essences of all the Signs, Planets and Houses. I’m a Gemini, and I seem to manage to confuse myself allot, so I actually feel like I lose what I've learned sometimes. Luckily I’m a Taurus Moon, which keeps everything from bursting at the seams. I have lots of planets in Gemini.

Alright, enough blabbering. I’m sure you came to this site to read something good about Astrology or Tarot, and I intend to write some articles. I’m NOT a professional yet, feedback is totally welcome. In fact, I need it. Badly. Thank's!!!